A a beautiful post from Nikita Pandya about fear really struck me in the heart and inspired me to compose this writing.

I always imagine myself as courageous woman. I always have this image of myself being able to stand up for every one in need, defending those whose rights have been abused. But I guess, that’s just an illusion. I was not brave at all.

The point where I finally got the nerve to stand up was when I confronted my angry father, who had his fist clenched and punched it to the wall right next to my left ear. I did not blink and I certainly did not try to avoid that fist. I looked him in the eye, and challenged him. I said, ‘Go on, do what you want to do with me. I am not afraid.’ After that we had an endless and pointless argument for about an hour.

I went back to my room and suddenly I started crying. I called my husband, at the time still my boyfriend, and couldn’t say a word. I just cried. He listened to me crying until when I was finally able to control my breathing, I said, “Dad tried to hit me again,” and he said, “Okay. Now what do you want me to do?” and I replied, “Nothing. I’m going to hang up the phone. I love you.”

I think it was the bravest moment in my life that I have ever experienced. When I was a kid, when my father would swing his arm to hit me in the face or wherever he can land his hand upon me, I would not dare to even look him in the eye.

I guess growing up makes me stronger. I guess moving away from the family gave me a different perspective and suddenly I am not a child anymore.

But I am still not fearless. I’m still afraid of things unknown and uncertain. I certainly still afraid of failure. And, oddly enough, I don’t want to lose that feeling. Fear has made me stronger. I’ve known fear for almost my entire childhood. We’re sort of best friends. Without fear, I wouldn’t be able to prepare the worse case scenarios. And therefore, I wouldn’t be able to strategize my steps forward. Fear makes me human.


I walk side by side with fear

I acknowledge her being there

Watching me, taunting me


It gives me goose bumps

It makes my voice tremble

It discourages my faith


Sometime I got beaten

Most of the times I won


Fear is not the enemy

Fear is the motivation,

The drive,

To keep on moving forward,

And to dare





I know it’s been a while since I last write

It has been a tough year for me

Especially the last few months

I feel like I want to tell you everything

But I realize it’s pointless

It is also an excuse for not writing

I have been writing, but never thought that they’re worth to publish

And I’ve written various topics as well, I didn’t know where to start

There’s this piece about over-thinking

About the struggle in finding what’s best for you and your family

About the loneliness that sometimes crawling in the most vulnerable moments in our lives

About the new movie series trend

About the anger of not capable to do about the things getting out of our control

About marriage-whether to marry the devil you know or with a new devil

And there is about the difference between working for yourself and for other people

I have no idea where to start.

While I was away from the blogging world, I notice that there are a lot of things going on here as well. And I must admit, that I really like the current system of the blogging university. And I just registered to join the “Branding and Growth Course”. I hope I can get insights and at the same time contribute a little of my experience in the group.

Share your thoughts in the comment on things I should write first. Or better yet, if you can tell me how to organize those pieces into one big piece of writing.



Interpreting 101

Some of my friends ask me about how to be a good interpreter; the exercises, tips and tricks. So I decided to write it down and post it for everyone else who might want to learn.
Remember, that this is my list that I produced from my experience. Feel free to add or make a comment.

Hope this helps

– Try to understand a song/movie without reading the text and while you’re doing something else, e.g. Ironing,folding your clothes, etc.

-Try to speak foreign language you want to master and record it. Listen again or ask someone who understand the language to listen. Can you/they understand what you’re saying?

-Listen or watch speeches. Take notes. As short as possible. Read the notes. Can you restate what’s in the note verbally and fluently?

-Ask for the brief before an event. Familiarize yourself with the context and terms IN ADVANCE.

-Check if any device is provided or you should provide one. Don’t underestimate technical issues;it can have great impact to your interpretation quality at times.

-If you never use a device before, familiarize yourself before the duty starts. Make sure you’re in the right channel and turn on/off the device appropriately.

-Do not copy other interpreter style. Be yourself and always confident.

-If you’re not confident, your mind messed up with you, and you CAN’t focus.

-Lose focus=lose everything

-Bring your own water bottle. Don’t assume the client will provide one for you. Better to have extra than none, and you’ll dry your throat resulting to lose focus and concentration.

-Work out regularly. Fit body means good blood circulation to the brain which helps you to enhance your working performance. No pass out during field visits as well.

-Read the news everyday. It helps you to stay updated with the current world issues and pick up a new word everyday.

-Stay in touch with your colleagues. You might need their help and they might need yours.

-Always improve yourself. Professionaly and personally.